God wanted me to have was a GIVING SPIRIT.
It's a spirit, it's an attitude, because when you open up to give, you open up to recieve, the same thing you have to have to be a great giver, is the same thing you have to have in order to be a great RECIEVER.
It's the same thing. You can't think nothin when you give it, and you can't think nothin of it when you get it. Because as long as you think so much of money, God can't give it to yah, because it's YOUR GOD.
And if its too much to give away then its too much to give back, but when you don't pay it no attention going, and you don't pay it no attention coming God said I can trust you with the blessing because you won't let NOTHIN SEPERATE YOU FROM ME.
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I've watched tons of people, nickle and diming all their life, lemme see lemme see, now now wait, lemme see, jlkafjld;alfk;jasdflaskjfasldfkjasdflkas
And they will never end up with anything!!
Their capacity to recieve is only as big as their capacity to give. God who sees in secret will reward you openly.
Financially, spiritually, emotionally, in every area of your life, and what I love about Him is that in the day of your trouble He will not forsake you.
I didn't say you weren't gonna have trouble, because you'll have trouble, but in the day of your trouble He will not forsake you.
David said " by this I know that the Lord is with me, for He has not allowed my enemies to triumph over me."
He said that's how I knew God was with me, because He didn't let em' whoop me.
"And when thou prayest, thou shalt not be as the hypocrites are, they love to pray in the synagogues and in the corners of the streets, that they may be seen of men. Verily I say unto you, they have their reward. But when thou prayest enter into thy closet, and when thou has shut they door, pray to thy Father......
Now when the woman was saying I brought Him into my chamber I brought Him into my private place, I brought Him into my secret place, this is private prayer. AND PUBLIC ANSWERS!!!!!!
This is not the public showy impressive stuff, this is that private secret whispers, driving in the car, at home at night, when suddenly you begin to recognize that you have never in your life, driven home alone. All of a sudden you become aware that He's with you. And when God becomes so comfortable and so much apart of your life, that you don't even have to address the letter, by saying our Heavenly Father, YOU JUST CONTINUE THE CONVERSATION!!, because you have been talking off and on all day!! So right in the middle of the trip you say...." you know" ....
He's become a part of your life. He's a part of you. A part of your life, a part of your life. No one should be able to write a story about you, and not mention HIM.
He is your secret weapon, He is your secrect counselor, He is your secret partner, He is your secret ally in a crisis, HE IS YOUR SECRET WEAPON WHEN ALL HELL IS BREAKING LOSE IN YOUR LIFE. He is the secret motivator when you feel like giving up.
David said He's the lifter up of my head.
Everytime he said " my head's dropped" it was God that came by and picked it back up again!!
On down at like verse 26 ish
Jesus " take no thought"
27- "which of you by taking thought can add one cubit to his stature."
28- "so why worry about it"
31-"take no thought"
34- "take no thought"
In these verses these are all the things you won't have to think about. God swears on His own name that that's how it is!
Not how you are gonna be clothed, not about the weather, not about finances, not about situations..
He said if you will do what verse 33 says " seek ye first first the kingdom of God. Underline that seek.
The kingdom will not seek you, you have to seek it. But seek ye first the kingdom of God and all it's righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto YOU.
All these things that you worried about!! God said when I become YOUR primary interest, you won't have to think about that.
The reason He left you to think about that is because you weren't thinking about HIM!!!!
And the more you showed Me you weren't thinking about Me I let you have things to think about. BUT IF YOU WOULD ONLY THINK ABOUT ME!!
Ask and it shall be given unto you..
Now ask and it shall be given unto you.
So it begins with a verbal request, ask and it shall be given unto you.
But it doesn't stop there:
But it doesn't stop there because after that He says SEEK and YE SHALL FIND!!
There is a difference between asking and seeking.
Seeking is more progressive, than asking.
It is more progressive. It means I am going beyond just mentioning this, I am willing to get up outta my bed and find it.
I'm gonna find it, I'm gonna find it, I'm gonna find, IT, I'm gonna find it.
I think that when you get older you'll be living out of the lake of things that you sought God for in your youth.
Like I'm not telling anyone to do this or anything alright...
But just picture a young high school student seekin God, that's walkin back from school on the side of the road, and he just closes his eyes and starts walking through traffic, and he says "Lord this is how much I trust you."
Think about it, that's crazy, but that boy is trying to tell God how much He trusts Him, how much He wants Him, this is how much I'm willing to seek you.
I'm willing to turn over my plate and fast, I'm willing to just go days without food, just seeking God, I fell in love with my bible, I got in trouble at school, I was supposed to be reading my history book, and I had that stuck up in front of the desk, and had my bible behind that, because I couldn't put it down, I was seeking Him, I was seeking Him.
I think woman can relate well to this. You know when women get pregnant, their eating habits change because they're carrying something, that demands to be fed.
I have a destiny that demands to be fed, its demands it, I don't mean it was optional, it demanded to be fed, and it makes sense now, it makes sense now, because you are catchin the end of the movie, the finished product, but at the time I was doing it, it look stupid and ridiculous, I wasn't a pastor, I wasn't a bishop, I wasn't even a minister, I was just somebody saved in the church. Just in the church hungry, snatchin, more more more, I want to know more about everything, more about the holy ghost, more about His spirit, what are the gifts of the spirit, how do they work, what are the fruits of the spirit, how do I know I have the fruits of the spirit, how do I manifest it in my life, what do you mean to be anointed, what does it mean to be gifted, there is a difference between being anointed and gifted.... I WANTED TO KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- This what it needs to be like, seeking God.
Now I'm wondering are you carrying anything in you that demands to be fed. Are you pregnant or are you just here to listen to the message?
When you read about women in the old testament, almost every single one of them started out baren, an empty womb, wailing before God, give me a child!! Lest I die.
To have an empty womb doesn't physically hurt, yet they screamed out in pain. Isaiah said sing thou baren woman, thou does not concieve for the children of the baren woman shall be more than the children of the married woman. He said when you come from being empty, and you cry out to God and say I refuse to live my life with an empty womb....
He that hungers and thirsts after righteousness, shall be filled,
When you see anybody walking in the anointing and in the spirit, it oughta provoke you to jealousy.
A really really good preacher, makes ya feel stupid, makes yah feel stupid, so you go home, and say " I got to get in this word. I gotta do better than this, I'm behind!!!! "
I mean somebody who's really anoinnted, they provoke you to pray, and you say "OH GOD, OH GOD, I WANNA KNOW YOU!!."
Because other people show you, it is possible to know Him better than you do, and the very fact that that's possible outta provoke you to jealousy!
UNTIL YOU CRY OUT LIKE HANNAH, "I WANNA TO HAVE A CHILD!!!!!!!"
So you gotta start asking, and it shall be given, seek and ye shall find.
Knock, knock, knock, when you finally find a place, knock, and it shall be opened unto you.
Good God knock.
Now if you come to my house, and you knock, you're knocking let's me know you're there, but you're knocking don't open the door.
So when I open the door, you cannot say
I had to open the door.
And when you get through, seeking, and asking, and knocking, it's still God that opens up the door to you.
Have you ever had God, open something for you?
Haha have you ever had God open something for you?
Can I tell you how wonderful it is, when you've been knocking at something, and you couldn't open it yourself, and all of a sudden God just opens it up.
Can I tell you how special it is??
Now no one keeps knocking at a door, when you don't believe anyone is in there. And the reason some people don't seek God is because they are convinced that they have it all,.... they don't seek You.
But some of us are hungry.
Without FAITH it is impossible to please Him...
Without faith it is impossible..
Your faith is so important and yet so fragile, so fragile, and really what I have learned after years, of this, of God, the enemy isn't really after your money, what's the devil gonna do with your money, the devil doesn't need your money. He's not after your car, the enemy isn't after your job, what's the devil gonna do with that, he don't wanna work for them, hahaha
he's after your faith, and he'll shake all those things that can be shaken, and if your faith is in any of them, he has it, but if your faith is in something that cannot be shaken, AHH, when he gets through touching everything around you, and you are standing there crying, LIKE JOB, AND YOU'RE SAYING THE LORD GIVETH AND THE LORD TAKETH AWAY, BUT BLESSED BE THE NAME OF THE LORD. Job lost EVERYTHING, but his integrity.
They were saying " I thought you were so righteous", "if you was righteous you wouldn't be going through there", where's your God now", "thought you were the rich man", " I knew you weren't anything", " look at yo kidsssss dead", " your marriage has gone bad", "your house burned up your crops are gone", "you're investments are destroyed, you're sick in your body," " you're diseased in your flesh"
HE LOST EVERYTHING!!!
But his integrity, you know why, because his integrity wasn't in anything that he lost.
And if you don't seek God, you'll have faith, but your faith won't be in something that the enemy can't shake, and as soon as the enemy shakes down your job, or your house, or shakes up your marriage, you'll backslide, and say there aint nothin to God.
But if your faith, faith was built on a SOLID foundation......
I'm not saying if you have faith you won't cry, or you won't hurt, I'm not saying you won't get depressed.
But when you get through all of that, all through that MESS, you still believe in HIM.
I believe Him broke, I believe Him sick, I believe Him lonely, I', divorced but I still believe HIM!!
I DON'T KNOW NOTHIN YOU NEED TO HOLD ONTO LIKE YOUR FAITH!
Have patience, and just believe you'll come up outta this, if you stop believin that YOU GONNA GO DOWN,
just believe, I believe I'm gonna come outta this, I don't know how, I don't know when, I don't know what I'll have to go through, but I still believe I'm comin outta this.
The bible says without faith it is impossible to please Him.
There is nothing harvested in your heart, that God is interested in like your faith, He doesn't need your talent, He doesn't need your voice, He doesn't need you to draw for Him, He doesn't need anything you got like He needs your faith.
TO NOT BELIEVE HIM IS AN INSULT!!
I'm done, I'll wrap it up, with the next one I swear haha!!